It's hard to believe that this year is now halfway over. I took a look back at my New Year's Resolution, summed up with the word: Confidence.
I want confidence. Confidence that doesn't come from what job I have or what I can produce, but in who God made me. Confidence that no matter what happens, He has a plan for me and is working all things for good, even the things that seem like mistakes or detours to others...and myself.
- Launch a business that I was working on at the time with two co-partners
- Get published
- Run a 5K
- Get my closet down to 100 items
- Pay off a school loan
- Guest post on 3 blogs
- Quit Target
- Redesign Scribbles
- Finish the church flyer and my quilt
- Make art
So much has changed in six months. As of June,
- The business fell through the day before the launch.
- I haven't been published yet, and I really haven't been pursuing that as much as I should.
- I decided against running; I think I'll stick with yoga for now.
- I did get my closet down to 100!
- We did pay off that loan.
- I guest posted about fair trade on a New Kind of Normal and Mercy Ink, and I guest posted an embroidery tutorial on Liz Makes. I'm working on five more guest posts and collaborations for the future!
- I did quit Target!
- I redesigned Scribbles, and I actually haven't changed it in six months.
- I've made art, lots and lots of art!
While I've met many of those goals, and many more I've made throughout the last six months, I wonder how I'm doing on my overall resolution - growing in confidence.
Dealing with failure and rejection has helped me grow in confidence. For example, when the business partnership didn't work out, I went through a period of self-doubt, but I was also determined to try again on my own. Bleu Feather Paper Co. doesn't have people breaking down the (virtual) door yet, but I have learned so much in the process of setting it up, creating the brand, marketing, and trying to find what works. For example, you'll find out via the next newsletter that there's been some important pricing adjustments.
I've been rejected for a several jobs that I thought I was a great fit for, without even an interview. That really struck a blow at my confidence at first. I wallowed a little, thinking I wasn't good enough for anyone, but instead of letting that last for months, I decided to proactively work on getting more experience so that I could be a better contender.
Interviews are a great way to work on your confidence, as it turns out! After all, you're selling yourself, your skills, and the potential benefit to your employer. I've had two interviews this month, and while at first I felt a little like I was faking it, now I do feel more confident in my abilities.
And I can tell more changes are on the way for the next six months. For one, I'm very excited to announce that I am now an intern for Sage Grayson! My first day is July 1st, and I will be helping her with social media, scheduling, and graphic design. I know I'm going to learn a lot from Sage, and I'm glad that I'll be able to use my skills to free her up to focus on coaching and writing.
From right here, I can see the beginnings of many possible paths for the future. Who knows what the next six months will bring?!
"Being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ (Philippians 1:6)."I'm deeply grateful that God knows the plans He has for me, and it's all under His control, not mine!
I'm also deeply grateful for all the love you guys show me through your faithful reading and sweet comments. Thank you so, so much for being here!
Did you make New Year's Resolutions? How are you doing on keeping them? Share your progress in the comments!